I took a year off work for two reasons - the first was because I always wanted to go to MIT and I had a chance to do so, and the second was that I felt I needed the time off to 'find' myself (midlife crisis????). I had a great time at MIT 'finding' myself (including on the ice skating rink as you can see from the picture) and have come home more lost than ever. Starting to think it wasn't such a good idea after all.
Back at work, I feel lost most times and wonder if the other Fellows feel the same way at their various work places, or if its just me. I've been unable to find my rhythm and it feels like I'll never adjust. Friends at work who took time off as well say its a passing phase, I'll soon fit in and it'll be business as usual. But do I want that? It would be a total waste of my year at MIT. The only thing I'm certain about is that coming back home was the right thing.
I spend my weekdays waiting for the weekend (fingers and toes crossed that there will be no meetings) and spend my weekends dreading the beginning of the week and I wonder if the rest of my life is going to be like this. I shudder at the thought of continuing like this for another 20 years. Again I say, there has to be a lot more to life than this.
So I'll continue to pray that I 'find' myself soon, and find out what my purpose is in this life and what role I am meant to play. It cannot be that I was created to 'mark time' which is all I seem to be doing right now.
Back at work, I feel lost most times and wonder if the other Fellows feel the same way at their various work places, or if its just me. I've been unable to find my rhythm and it feels like I'll never adjust. Friends at work who took time off as well say its a passing phase, I'll soon fit in and it'll be business as usual. But do I want that? It would be a total waste of my year at MIT. The only thing I'm certain about is that coming back home was the right thing.
I spend my weekdays waiting for the weekend (fingers and toes crossed that there will be no meetings) and spend my weekends dreading the beginning of the week and I wonder if the rest of my life is going to be like this. I shudder at the thought of continuing like this for another 20 years. Again I say, there has to be a lot more to life than this.
So I'll continue to pray that I 'find' myself soon, and find out what my purpose is in this life and what role I am meant to play. It cannot be that I was created to 'mark time' which is all I seem to be doing right now.
